As I am. Intention of the year.
Manifesting in the most astonishing ways, this intention of mine: As I am.
In my conversations with D and D (my friend and soulmate Dominic – who just happens to be the most skilled processwork therapist – and my coach Dave) different aspects of me show up.
Warrior-Helena. Worrier-Helena.
The Sisyphean-like Worker-Helena, constantly pulling a heavy load.
And today I welcomed Sly-Helena onto the stage, in the company of Sharp-Helena.
This is me. As I am.
All of me. All that I am.
Where this all will lead?
Beats me.
But I am sure having fun in the process; the unearthing; the embodying.
Fun? But, there’s a lot of pain and tears, feelings of insecurity, loneliness and shame isn’t there?
Yes.
True.
There is.
But that’s part of the fun, honestly.
Not fun as in me laughing my head off the entire time.
No. Not that type of fun.
Rather the type of fun that has me experience these different aspects of me, feeling the emotions, raw and rough. Discovering, opening new doors within, reacquainting myself with parts of me that haven’t been very prominent recently. For me, this is fun. Exciting. It’s like going on an adventure, not knowing what will happen, who will turn up, where the journey will take me.
The best kind of journey there is, lasting a lifetime at that!