enough

It is enough.

It is enough.

April 22, 2019
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I haven’t prioritized setting up a new page on my website for my new podcast Doing gentle with an edge and even forgot that I timed the releases, so I had forgotten until my eldest told me two new episodes were released today.

I need to…
I have to…
I must…

No. I don’t. Here, however, is what’s true for me, in this very moment: I want to make a page on this site for my podcast, and set up a post for each episode, with links to the most commonly used podcast players, as well as the actual texts that I am reading.

What more is true, in this very moment, is that I have not made this a priority. And I think that’s why thoughts like need to, have to, must pop up, pushing for this activity to be pushed up the ladder of priorities in life.

And.
No.

Not now.
I have other things with higher priority at the moment, and hence, it will wait. Until the time has come for this to be done. Until then, it’s not as if the episodes are not available. They are. I just might be getting a wee bit more traction if I was actively promoting each episode, that’s a given.

But again – there’s only so much I can give top prio to, and by accepting this fact, I am actually inching my way closer to a time when this will be done. If, on the other hand, I was busy beating myself up over the head for not getting this done that I should my energy is used unproductively and in no way in service to me. Nor to you. So I won’t.

Deep breath in… and out.

It is enough.


Find Doing Gentle with an Edge in a podplayer near you, or via these links:
iTunes https://apple.co/2uSd94d
Spotify https://spoti.fi/2G2XMuI 
Acast https://play.acast.com/s/doinggentlewithanedge?

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I’m not enough

January 10, 2017
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The feeling that I’m not enough. That no matter how hard I try, how hard I work, I will never be able to do enough, never able to do all that which I feel I should be doing. The frustration of not being able to make a difference, the difference I should make.

It’s not a feeling that I experience often anymore.
I used to. A lot. I had so many thoughts about what I should be doing, how I should be doing it, how fast it should be done and so on, infinitely. Know that feeling? Are you there? Or have been there?

I am not enoughI think a lot of us know that feeling. That’s what I perceive at least, looking at the world around me. Listening to friends and family, seeing their struggles with not being enough, never being enough. And I have to say… it really makes me question the way we’ve shaped society. Because I have a hard time to see how this serves anyone, let alone all of us collectively. I mean, you can argue that it makes people put their best effort to whatever it is they are involved in. But I honestly think it costs more than we get. The energy drained is more than what’s generated from those efforts, performed under stress, duress, unhappiness.

I, for one, know that when I stopped engaging so much with that type of thought/feeling, all of a sudden, I had so much more energy! The energy I used in beating myself up for not being enough, all of a sudden could be utilized for much more contructive things. I had energy to spare, to engage myself, to activate myself, to take better care of myself, to interact with the world around me in the way I want to show up in the world.

I am not enough.
It’s a thought. And perhaps, at times, it’s fact. That’s true. But I do believe, more often it’s an opinion. And as such, it’s worthwhile asking yourself How does this serve me? Asking that question might help you see the opinion for what it is, and realize that you have a choice in whether or not to engage in it, or not. Where’s your energy best spent, I ask? Beating yourself up for not being enough, or for more constructive things?

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