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Willing myself into murky waters

Willing myself into murky waters

March 23, 2020
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Participating in The Creative’s Workshop on akimbo.com I am exposed to two sets of asks.
1) The Dailies, where I and the other players are asked to write and post every day for 100 days in a row. Subject, style, content totally up to each and every one of us.
2) The Prompts, where I and the other players are given a thrice-weekly prompt asking us to reflect and respond to questions, pushing me (at least) far outside of my comfort zone. Asking me to take a stand, to give voice to what I like and dislike, to what I do and don’t do, to what my work looks like and why. 

The different asks give rise to different response within me, something I try to give voice to below.


It’s a matter of focus. Of intent.
Of willing myself into murky waters where the going is far from easy and smooth.

That’s what the Prompts feels like to me.

Whereas the Dailies are more of an easy-peasy sit-down and let what-ever-want’s-to-come-out pour from my fingers onto the screen in front of me.

And. Luckily. It’s not a question of either-or both rather a both-and.

They give me different types of release.
The Dailies get to be lighter, or heavier for that matter, but there’s more flow to them.
Less intellectual effort.

The Prompts speak to the Upholder in me, making me want to respond quite literally to the specific questions asked. Even though I wriggle like a worm on a fishhook now and again, I get through them, slowly and steadily, one by one. A bit behind the release-schedule, but catching up.
In their iterative structure, inviting me back into past prompts, to observe, orient, decide, act (ooda), there’s progress, if by progress I mean movement. Which I do.

Thanks in large part to TCW, my mind is moving.
My understanding is increasing.
The visibility is greater, there’s more and more clarity.
In what it is I want to do, in who it is I want to be.

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Stepping into the closet…

March 4, 2019
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Most commonly people step out of the closet… but not me. Instead, I stepped into it. Literally, that is, as I’ve been recording a few intro and outro-snippets for the upcoming Doing Gentle with an edge-podcast soon to be released, inside a closet. Makes for great sound isolation. It also ensured Søren Lassen Andreasen, who’s my audio producer, could continue working away while I did my thing in the closet.

There are many possible traps.
So much to decide upon, and getting lost amongst all these choices would be very easy:
Name of the pod?
Music for the pod?
How to release it – all at once, or one episode at a time?
If not all at once, what day or days to release episodes?
Make a big thing of the release, or sneak it out there?
How to go about it technically?
Where to host the pod?
Is there anything I haven’t thought about that will cause me to crash and burn technically? 

Then there are other aspects as easy to fall into:
What will people think?
Is this really a good idea? 
What if no one will listen to my pod?

Well…. the thing is that the first set of questions I’m finding out as I go along. As this is my first time ever releasing my own pod, I’m learning for possible (probable!) future pod-releases as well. And the second set of questions can only be answered if I release my pod.

So in a few days, you’ll be able to listen to Doing Gentle with an edge.
And I’ll be sure to tell you all about it when the time comes!

 

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