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Stepping out of my self-imposed bubble.

Stepping out of my self-imposed bubble.

August 2, 2020
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For the past three weeks I’ve been offline, with regards to Social Media. No Facebook, no Instagram, no Forward Link (the AKIMBO-workshop gathering after the specific workshops ends, like The Creative’s Workshop did right around the time I went off SoMe). Have hardly checked my email either, except now and then, making sure there wasn’t anything I needed to attend to. And once verifying that, quickly logging off.

Deleted the SoMe-apps and my email-app from my phone.
Leveled up to level 40 on my ”baby account” (started by my youngest) and promptly deleted Pokémon Go on July 12th, a game which has kept me company for 4 years, almost to the day (minus 4).

For three weeks, I’ve done… almost nothing.
Slept.
Rested.
Read.
(Loads. 16 books in 3 weeks.
Love it. Currently 8 books ahead in my Goodreads challenge for 2020 to read 65 books; when I started my vacation I was 5 books behind, at least.)
Binge-watched Reign, Cursed, Good Girls.
Knitted.
Gardened. Weeding. Watering.

Picked berries. Ate them.
(Wild strawberries. Raspberries. Gooseberries. Red and black currants. Black mulberries.)

I’ve not blogged.
Hardly written anything. (Published nothing!)
(Did meet with Caspian one afternoon to record small video’s for my upcoming Tankespjärn-online course.)

Have met… almost no one.
(Except on Zoom-calls, deeply nourishing zoom-calls.)
Have hardly stepped foot outside my house/garden.
Have hardly walked. Hardly biked.
Haven’t been down to the ocean even once.
Haven’t met up with friends, haven’t had anyone over, haven’t gone anywhere. More or less.

Ever since folklore was released July 24th (I was told by my in-house Swiftie), it’s been on repeat.
Day in, day out.
Softly. In the background.

The perfect soundtrack to this bubble of mine.
Soft. Airy. Scaled down, minimal.
Beautiful.
(And yes. It’s on. Now.
As I am slowly stepping back into the world.
Logging back on to FB and Instagram, catching up with what’s happened on Forward Link during my hiatus.
Slowly.
Overwhelmed. A bit.
Wanting, wishing, longing for me to get another relation to SoMe from now on.
Up to me. I know.)

Yesterday, with two full days remaining until work is back on, I was astounded how deeply I –still– needed to do nothing.
Meet no one. Move hardly an inch.
Enjoying the sun, the warmth, the garden, books (3 in a day. And such lovely books.), folklore.

And you know what?
I. Needed. This.
Needed this break more than I realized.
Way more.

(Yet to learn, fully, how to let other people spark into action from my energy, as opposed to them being hooked up intravenously to me, running off my energy. Explains a lot.)

Stepping out of my self-imposed bubble.
Slowly. Gently.

Changes are afoot.
(In more ways than one.)

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What to stop doing?

March 20, 2019
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As I was pondering what I do to earn a living (I’ve had my own company since October 1st, 2007), I came up with a multitude of ideas on what m o r e I can do, on top of my existing income streams. Those I will be exploring and playing around with, for sure. But more importantly, I also started to look at what I do, that perhaps I should s t o p doing?

Any existing income-generating activities that I should stop doing? Worth pondering, for sure.

But the real deal-breaker is likely to be that which takes time and effort without giving me the results I am looking for? Like… spending time on social media without a clear purpose? Meetings of various sorts that are super-nice, but are they aligned with the results I am going for? Blogging and vlogging?

I blog every day. And I love it. Or rather, I love it most days. Sometimes it’s a drag, but I’ve resolved to stick to my intention of a daily blog post, if nothing else because it’s easier to stick to the routine if I blog daily, not making it a choice really. Yet. Blogging takes time. Let’s say I spend half an hour up to an hour a day to write and publish my daily post. Sometimes less… sometimes more. What could I do with this hour that would be of more value to me – and you? Or is this an hour that i s generative enough to warrant the effort, only in different ways than strictly monetary?

I know I would not be who I am, or where I am, today, without blogging, which I have now done, more or less daily, since January 2013. But is it still as rewarding as it has been?

I also vlog every day, on Facebook, and have for 140 days in a row. And I think I love that too. The same reasoning as for the blog is valid for the vlogging. Except it takes way less time. 5-10 minutes, and I am done. However, it’s not at all my medium in the same way as writing/blogging is. I like letting words pour out of me, down through my fingers and onto (digital) paper. I enjoy the vlogging as well, but it’s different. Perhaps the major reason for me not being as enamored with vlogging because I personally prefer reading to listening/watching vlogs. (Pods on the other hand – those I love!)

Podding is something I am on the brink of doing… so I will have to take a raincheck on that medium for the moment, as I don’t know what the actual effort and possible reward from it will be.

Results and rewards are definitely not o n l y to be measured in terms of money. And yet – if there’s very little, or no, monetary gains to show for a lot of invested effort, that effort has to be balanced out somehow. Because there’s a bottom line here. I want – need! – to invoice a certain sum every month, in order to pay me as well as cover all other expenses.

So.
What do I spend my time on?
What’s the required effort, how much of my energy is used, and what’s the end result?
What is the reward, and does it match the effort used?

 

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