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Being gentle to me – Reflection April ’17

Being gentle to me – Reflection April ’17

April 26, 2017
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I wonder if this last month has possibly been the month of me being the least gentle towards myself, that I’ve experienced in the past several years… A month of intense work and too little time to simply be. I haven’t been intentionally mean towards myself, not at all, but there’s been deadlines looming that have made me step into a get-it-done-mode where the soft and silent inner voice has been completely run over. Especially since I let that part of me run the show in February; a month where a lot of the work could have been done that I’ve been doing this month as a consequence.

And it’s ok. I mean, I am still fit as a fiddle, eating, sleeping (well… could do with a bit more sleep, truth be told), knitting and taking time for family gatherings, so it’s not been 100% work, far from it. And the masochist within takes some pleasure in the getting-it-done-mode also; it’s rewarding to see a delivery become more and more defined, pieces falling into place and making sense, not to mention the thrill at shipping it, only to be allowed to follow it up with an invoice for a job well done.Tired and lack-lustre

But I am tired.
Sit in the sofa yawning like crazy.
Feel lack-lustre.

It’s as if life is taking its toll, all of a sudden, and I just want to Be. Doing nothing. Throw away all ToDo’s, cancel all meetings and assignments; put life on Pause for a little while.

But I won’t. Because I don’t want to, truly.
But yes, postponing ToDo’s that are possible to postpone without serious consequences, for sure.
Saying no to meetings and or assignments that aren’t crucial, definitely.
Asking for help and assistance, as and when I need it; listening within and being open with my needs, you bet.
And stepping up for myself – hell yeah!

All in all, being gentler towards myself, supersizing on Gentleness this next month, as I replenish and recharge while simultaneously finishing off my last large assignment for the year.

Welcome to my humble abode, where the underlying tone centers around being gentle to oneself. I will be reflecting on a monthly basis on what that means to me, in the moment, and this is one of those reflections. I hope you enjoy it. If you do, please subscribe to updates so you won’t miss out on future reflections.
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Being gentle to me – Reflection October ’16

October 31, 2016
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An odd month.
A month of upheaval, in som many forms, in so many lives, not just mine.

I’ve been tired of words.
I haven’t written as much for myself, as I did in previous months.
I’ve deliberately avoided listening to podcasts, in instances where I would have just a month ago.
Tired of the words. Cannot take another word, another wisdom, another great idea triggering me to think new thoughts.

I’ve been tired. And sad. Sad
(And yes. Internally, sometimes, fighting against that which is. Now. Not wanting it. Wanting something else. And hence, pain!)

Instead of podcasts, I’ve listened a lot to Peaceful Piano.
Soothing tones caressing my weary soul.
Like a lullaby, rocking me softly, granting me peace and quiet, gently drying the tears off my cheeks.

And throughout it all, I’ve let it be. All of it.
Witnessed the changes within, and without.
Letting it all come, when and how it showed up.

Being gentle to me, is one of the most important things I can do, any given day. These days, especially so, as I’ve been in such need for it. And being gentle to myself is not done in one instant during a day. It’s more of a base tone, always there in the background, coloring my world with tenderness and care.

How grateful I am that I have practiced the art of being gentle for a few years now!

Welcome to my humble abode, where the underlying tone centers around being gentle to oneself. I will be reflecting on a monthly basis on what that means to me, in the moment, and this is one of those reflections. I hope you enjoy it. If you do, please subscribe to updates so you won’t miss out on future reflections.

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