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Missed opportunities. Or not?

Missed opportunities. Or not?

August 30, 2020
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Here I go a g a i n!
Or rather… here I don’t go again.

I have the tankespjärn community monthly Zoom-call coming up tomorrow morning (my time, Central European Summer (!) Time/CEST. What that means for you TimeandDate can help figure out!), and I’ve been meaning to reach out, individually, to people whom I would love to join the community, thinking I wanna tell them Right before a monthly Zoom is a great time to jump in and try it out!

I still think that’s a great idea.
I just haven’t. Reached out, I mean.

And of course, rather than spending an hour reaching out to people, in person, with an open and heartfelt invitation… I do the s a m e thing that I’ve concluded, ages ago, is n o t the way to go. The shotgun approach is sooooo much easier though…. Ah, there comes my old friend, Resistance.

But it’s funny.
Because, when I do use the sniper approach, and reach out in person, regardless if I get a Yes or a No to my invitation, I always feel good.
Always. (Truly!)

So. What the heck is this really about?
What am I resisting? Why am I running into these missed opportunities, over and over again? Perhaps (likely?) I fear someone will not respond graciously, but rather lash out at me?

And, however irrational I know this fear to be, it might still be what keeps on getting in the way. Because that’s the thing about feelings. Rational, they most often are not.

I can look at this month’s Zoom as a missed opportunity. Or… I do have an hour or so before heading off to bed. So besides posting this (which, albeit not a personal invite, I hope still reads as an invite! I would love to have you check out the community!), I will reach out a hand to a few people I know and cherish. Ask. Invite. Extended without expectations (other than an actual response. I do love my clear Yes/No-responses, and might well push a bit to get one!).

Reporting back tomorrow, ok?
(That way I have accountability, in place as well. Clever, huh?!)

(And here I sit, ready to hit publish, when it hits me… what if I use this as accountability for the September Zoom as well? I mean, to get in touch and give personal invitations, with a bit more leeway? Even more clever!)


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Right/Wrong

August 8, 2020
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Right and Wrong. That was the starting point for the monthly Zoom in July, in the tankespjärn community on Patreon. An hour of gentle, exploring, curious conversation and connection, along the lines of the attached doodle.

What became apparent quite quickly was that we all had a strong sense of either ourselves or a parent, being the one who was always right. Makes me wonder about you, reading this, if you, a parent, or perhaps a grandparent or someone else, held this role in your life growing up? The one always in the right?

From the doodle, I am thrown back to that Friday morning (CET time), the way our conversation meandered about, the way they do, those generous, rich, nourishing conversations. Across the distinction between Judgment (preconceived notions) vs Discernment (being open to what is), and how that latter opens up not just within, but also without, making room for all (people, ideas, decisions). To the impactful question: Am I worthy to get what I want? Which made way for insights of not nurturing oneself as one could (can!), and how, when the notion of having to be right (while fearing being wrong) leaves room for uncertainty, how freeing that can be.

Right and Wrong.
Where does it take you?


These Zoom-conversations are a monthly feature of the tankespjärn-community–and I know I speak for every member when I say, that you are enthusiastically invited to join in!

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A nourishing conversation

June 23, 2020
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Attention energizes.
Intention transforms. 

These two sentences were the topic for the June monthly Zoom-call of the tankespjärn-community on Patreon inspired by these two posts:
Attention energizes. Intention transforms.
#blackouttuesday

Four people, 60 minutes (honestly, we ran for 70, my bad!).
Listening.
Learning.

A nourishing conversation, if ever, spanning the meaning of life to Covid-19, Black Lives Matter to the Law of Attraction (and the Law of Action), and the importance of knowing our attention as well as our intention when we decide what to focus on (based on the adage that we get more of what we focus on). 

This Zoom-call definitely whet my appetite and I already look forward to doing a Zoom in July, on… well. Who knows!

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Say w h a t?

June 21, 2020
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All of a sudden, I have at least four posts to write, where I know precisely what they will be about.

Say w h a t?

Yeah, I know.
For me, this is an oddity, an outlier. I normally sit down, and something shows up, which I then write about. Or, I start writing something, but it turns into something else, through a process I cannot describe, but one which my system knows full well, as it’s run often enough.

But now, I have a post on a book to write, one on generosity, one with a limerick gifted to me, and then one on today’s Zoom-call with my tankespjärn-community (which in itself is a post containing a multitude of spin-off-posts).

This means… if I sit down to write all these, I would be ahead of the game by at least four days. If I still stick to writing each day, that would get me halfway to the goal I’ve had for a while, of being approximately a week ahead of myself. Being ahead by a week or so has the added perk of me being able to re-visit written-but-not-yet-published pieces, tweaking and trimming them if need be.

But first… an hour of two of gardening!


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Going for the shotgun approach

June 18, 2020
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I could chastise myself for not being a better community-creator over on Patreon, but what good would that do me? Or my community members, for that matter?

No good what-so-ever.

So, when inspiration struck, I seized the moment, sending out an invite for a Zoom call on attention and intention come Sunday morning.

And, like the other times I’ve sent out an invite to join me on Zoom in the tankespjärn-community, regardless if someone pops up, or not, I will be there. I will bring my attention to my community because that is my intention.

(And yes.
Of course, I would rather you joined!
You, who are already a member of the community.
You, who have thought about it but not checked it out for yourself. Yet.
You, who’ve perhaps heard me mention it, but never really checked it out.
You, who’ve never heard about it.

All of you.
Welcome to join.
It would make me thrilled.
And happy. Elated!

And yes.
Here I go again.
Going for the shotgun approach once more, sending it out, into the void, the digital chasm, where – perhaps. Probably. Even likely? – no one actually feels invited. Personally invited. Which you are, I am just on the edge of my comfort zone here.

So.
I will.
Send out invitations.
Personally. Truly personally.

And I will come to you as well.
And you, you, and you.

Charlotte. Matthew. Alison and Lena. Janine, Verenice, Marcus. Andrea.
Jim and Gary. David and Dave. Angelica. Kristina. Pernilla and Elenor.
All of you.
Because you are all important to me, and I would love for you to join me!

One step at a time, even the smallest of steps can take me around the world. If only… I take them, step after step. That’s what I am committed to.)


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Be a purpose finder.

April 24, 2020
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Don’t be a purpose seeker, be a purpose FINDER. This morning @helenaroth opened up our minds to the possibilities in being kinder to yourself, playful in your approach and curious in your intentions. In doing so, your purpose will have a much easier time finding YOU.

That’s what they wrote a few hours after the fact, the lovely crew volunteering for Creative Mornings MALPurpose was the theme of this morning’s workshop. I was asked last week if I wanted to host it, their first ever Creative Mornings MAL (as in Malmö) meetup over Zoom, and of course, the Swedish heritage of Pippi Longstockings made me say Sure, I’d love to!

And I did. Love it that is.
And it went really well!
And I’ve learned so much these past years, not in the lest in the past two months on The Creative’s Workshop on how to run quite engaging and interesting and interactive workshops/meetings on and off Zoom, that it felt great to get to practice it first hand.

The theme, purpose, is an old friend of mine. I’ve written about it numerous times, clothing it in varying costumes, but at its core… same thing. Now, I didn’t prepare full-on, I admit. I talked the theme and my idea of setup over with my contacts at CM MAL, and jotted down notes for myself simultaneously. Checked out a few of those old blog posts of mine, and flicked through The Book of Awakenings for some added inspiration, and then, early this morning when I woke up, I had a general outline on my mind. So I grabbed pen and paper to give myself a few possible stepping stones.

I used a few of those stepping stones. Some were left unused on the paper. And a few new ones popped up in the moment. And that is what I do best. That was made very clear last year when I did my Pecha Kucha; I do better when I riff. It requires the setting to be one where riffing is possible, of course, but that is also what attracts me. It’s a frame that suits me. And having figured that out, is quite helpful as well.

And yeah. I do have a purpose in life. My why is to make a positive imprint, and the how that goes with it, is me being an agent of change. But most importantly, I didn’t invent it. And I didn’t search for it, but rather, it found me.

What about you? Have you found your purpose in life? Or has it found you?


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Moving more – check!

April 15, 2020
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I have been working on a computer for… like the past twenty+ years or so. More or less daily. It’s what I do. If I don’t write a blog piece, I answer emails. If I am not on my emails, I am reviewing documents. If I am not reviewing documents, I am authoring them. If I am not… well. You get it. The work I do is, to a huge extent, computer-based.

And still.
My body is currently screaming at me to STOP SITTING DOWN IN FRONT OF A COMPUTER ALL DAY LONG!

You’d think it was used to it.
And it is.

But not to the extent of now.

Or… honestly, it might be so, that in the past few years I have managed to get more variety in my work week that when I actually did spend all my time in an office as a salaried worker at a pharmaceutical company.

For the past year, until the beginning of March, I have been on my bike a lot, going to or from the train station or the bus depo, on my way to a couple of different customers, where I’ve also been doing quite a lot of training, which entails no computers what-so-ever, but rather workshop-style interactions and a lot of standing on my part.

But now.
One company has a ban on outside visitors, and as a food packager, I totally understand that.
One company has enforced quarantine rules, asking people to work from home, leaving me as a consultant no choice but to do the same.
So I am at home much more.
I have more meetings on Zoom than before, meetings I would have held in person if there was no pandemic.
And there I am, sitting in my sofa, laptop in knee, for hours on end. Hours!

My neck, my shoulders, my back are telling me: STOP IT!
(So as I am typing this, I am standing in the kitchen, at a make-shift standing desk.)

I don’t have a fitbit or Apple Watch or one of those little devices on my arm reminding me to Stand up, you’ve been sitting down too long!

Don’t get me wrong, it’s not as if I live a completely sedentary life. I still do my morning seven-minute workout. I get at least 10 kilometer in my body on a daily basis, taking walks and going for bike rides, even though I am not headed anywhere but back home again. It’s just not enough. I need to move more often spread throughout the day.

So – I don’t want a device on my arm. But I would love an app that does the same thing, or a timer-app that alerts me on the hour (or whenever I choose to) to get up, stand up, move about…

And… that had me go off on a spree. Checked out smart rings, but, nah…
Downloaded and installed Time Out in my laptop.

So. There.
Set.
On it.
Moving more – check!

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The reading retreat.

April 6, 2020
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Writing retreats, I’ve done. Alone. Together.
A day, two, three.

But never an official reading retreat.

One could argue I’ve been doing reading retreats ever since I learned how to read, because, to quote my mom, once I did I never stopped. Countless weekends I’ve spent immersed in great novels; laying away many a night, reading, totally engrossed in a story, making me experience life as a Viking slave, an Egyptian princess, a Vietnamese poet, a cave-woman, or explore the vast skies astride a flying dragon in some magical universe, similar and yet so different to my own.

But thanks to a The Creative’s Workshop-colleague writing about wanting to take time to read, I suggested she do a reading retreat, and all of a sudden, we had a date, going from idea to fruition in the space of three days. 90 minutes, over Zoom, all in all, four people, even though two sort of played a relay-game with each other, with one leaving as another entered the room. The Zoom-room.

…to be, without the intent to talk I said when we checked in prior to one reader leaving for another meetup. I’ve done many a type of meeting online, but never, truly, one where the intention was not to talk, but to be, and to read.

And I loved it.

As we shared half-time my co-creator was reminded of a quote by Lynda Barry, who has said about art-making that it’s this thing that we do alone together.

And I loved it. Alone. Together.
It felt so good. You know, like sitting in a room with a best friend, in total silence, and absolute companionship, doing whatever one pleases, but together? That’s what it felt like.

A gift.
One I want more of.

Would you like to join me sometime?

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We need each other

April 5, 2020
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Earlier this week, I got in a Zoom-call with my newfound friend Alison Coates. We are both attending The Creative’s Workshop, and what she’s doing is the type of Nik Askew-films that I’ve been enamoured with for the past… oh, ten years at least? Possibly more? 

Today, given social distancing (oh, how I wish the correct term was physical distancing! Because that’s what it’s about, truly.), she’s experimenting with doing these films online, using Zoom, rather than meeting face to face with a camera in tow. I booked a session with her (you can do too!), and am thrilled at what she managed to do with our 45 minutes. Working out the technical kinks is an ongoing process, but doing that as she goes along is inspiring to me. Not waiting until it all works seamlessly but rather doing that which wants to be done. (And honestly, how much ever works seamlessly unless we do some type of beta-testing?)

The result – had me amazed. Grateful at jumping at the chance to play with her. And me.
Click here to view We need each other.

Oh, and as I was doing my best to do a good set-up for Alisons zoom-call/recording, I was walking around my house trying to find a spot that had
1) good lighting
2) a fairly non-messy background
3) sufficient distance to youngest kid busy playing an e-sport-tournament on his computer
… I ended up in the basement bathroom, picture-proof here:

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Advent Calendar – December 12, 2019

December 12, 2019
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At the Nyongoro-plantation the operation is mechanized compared to the way things are done in Kiambere. One reason is the fact that the area is sparsely populated, which means Better Globe Forestry has a hard time to find enough workers.

Still, it would be hard to mechanize operations such as land clearing, pitting (that is, drilling holes for the seedlings), weed control and watering if the lands were rocky and/or very muddy.  Luckily, it isn’t. The soil conditions are just right for mechanization!

This bulldozer is part of the fleet of heavy equipment at Nyongoro, consisting of three bulldozers and eight tractors. There is still a need for manual labor though, especially for planting, pruning, seedling production, and security. The trees at the plantation are planted with just the right distance so the bulldozer can manage weed control in an efficient way, and the tractors can supply the seedlings with water (only necessary for the first year, after that the young trees can manage on their own).

There is a story about this bulldozer, one I would love to share with you, but it’s better suited for verbal than written storytelling. If you wanna hear it, reach out and I’ll set up a Zoom-call with you, ok? Curious?



Advent Calendar for 2019: sharing pictures and stories/reflections from my trip to Kenya in June. I went to visit “my trees” and get a hands-on experience of the social entrepreneurship of the Kenyan forestry company that I buy trees through.

Full disclosure: I am proud to say I am both a customer and an ambassador for the company. If you are curious to find out more, let me know and I’ll gladly get in touch with you! Here’s my sponsored link: https://betterglobe.com/27216 

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